Rain of Despair

An depressing past has passed, a new beginning once again. A new beginning meant new problems, new worries..but in life, it can never be a new life. =/ This is so not what i wanted, which is,a new love..
At first, i really tot we can remain as just friends, as good friends. One which i can be there for her always, 24/7 n still remain as friends like usual. But as time pass, as we get closer together, everything changed. Now, i think I've really fallen for her. What a big mistake.. if this were to be known by her, everything would be lost. A girl like her, with so many suitors, so many guys around her. I can never get near her totally. For in her mind, I'll always remain just as a friend.
Happy that we are close friends, but unhappy we cant be closer. Glad that we r at least close friends, afraid that she will find out the truth. What a weird person i am. Pretending that nothing is wrong is all i can do. Keeping things as it is, is all i can carry on doing. Every night, thinking over the same things, again and again. Yet, helpless, as thats all i can do. Nth more..
Really wish that i can just change everything. Wish that i can just say what i feel without spoiling anything. Wish that you will just stay beside me always.. n dun ever leave. All impossible wishes, experiences proved it all. For, forever does not exist. Thus, all i can continue wishing for is your present n as much as i can, ur future. I want all of it to have me included in it. yet another impossible dream.

Had been so long since i blogged, and yet, first post after approx 10 months, consists of rantings and unhappiness. Do hope things will turn out for the better. This is just a place where i convey my truth feelings. A place where i can just type anything i wan, anything i wish to type. May all of you have a good day. Will be blogging again soon ^.^
P.S change of signature.

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Cherish what you have, do not start regretting after you have lost it.